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soapstarjoe0723- May 23rd, 15:26
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It's pouring rain outside but I feel so peaceful Vane's sleeping in the next room while I'm cleaning a few things up around here. I'm heading to the pawn shop or something tomorrow to try and get some cash for old instruments we'll see how it goes I don't feel so bad about being dirt poor right now mainly because I'm still okay. I've got my music, I've got my friends, and I've got Vane. What more could you ask for? I just wish my mom wasn't so stressed. We're down to our last 20 dollars but we're in good shape we've got a lot of stuff to eat at the house. We're saving electricity saving money saving as much as we can. I'm going to go exchange my coins to just have some emergency cash for me I'm shooting the photos to use for my final exam project for drama with Cassie on monday. I'm going to take a few test shots though on my own later to see if it'll work. Taking enough pictures to make into an animation for a 3:30 song is going to be a bitch. Oh well. School's almost done and I think I'm getting over the fact that I'm leaving because I know I'll be back Don't worry guys if worse comes to worse my aunt said I can stay in Ruben's room this summer since he's going to be away at Drum Corps so I don't have to leave early after all...at least we have another month's rent. :] I feel like a kid again
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- soapstarjoe0723
- May 21st, 20:23
discontent
My mom got fired Over that stupid fat bitch and a $2 weave We'll see who has the last laugh Let's see who can figure THIS out : See You Next Tuesday ;] P.S. You can kiss the fattest part of my ass
- I just got
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 29th, 19:22
shocked
accepted to the University of Texas school of music Holy shit Dear Joselly,
I am pleased to inform you that you have successfully passed your music audition for the Butler School of Music at The University of Texas at Austin. This is the first step in a two-step process to enroll as a music major at the University. Along with passing the music audition, students must also qualify for the general admission to The University of Texas at Austin under the guidelines established by the Office of Admissions. The UT Admissions Committee has been notified of your successful audition and will review your application for all majors to which you applied and inform you of their decision accordingly.....wow
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 23rd, 0:03
creative
I'm in Texas right now, my UT audition is on Saturday at 9 AM...I used to think these things were no big deal. But everyone started saying I got cocky so I changed a lot and now im just scared. I can't even play. I don't have any confidence and I'm scared. I'm not even home, i'm countless miles away playing for people I dont know in some place I've never been to on a relatively new reed I feel like crying But I cant...cause I'm a trooper ^_^ *winks* so its time to grab my balls and just DO IT Sometimes I feel so vulnerable lol but I want you to know that everytime I feel that way now I think of that nickname and it helps tremendously lol If I do well enough on this audition I'm giving you the biggest hug EVER I'm glad you're still around G ;]
- Everytime I hear this song,
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 20th, 17:20
loved
I think of you I Think I'm Ready I'm used to opening my own doors and splitting the checks
He introduced me, was always just a friend
I bought a new dress, he never noticed
Always falling for these bad boys, such a challenge
I'm getting tired, of cleaning up after them
I think I'm ready to be a woman
Oh love, I think I'm ready
Ready for it
You were such a surprise
An unexpected gift
Said I was pretty, and I believed it
Not really used to all this attention
Told myself I don't deserve you
And this is just a phase
Could I get used to, being loved the right way?
I wanna argue, but there is nothing to say
Oh love, I think I'm ready
Ready for it
Ready for it
Oh love, I think I'm ready
Cuz you send me flowers, when there's no occasion
Yeah we talk for hours, you still wanna listen
Won't hold it against me if I just need you to hold me tonight
My mother always told me that you'd show up one day
So scared to feel this way but love, I think I'm ready
Ready for it
Ready for it
Oh love, I think I'm ready
Ready for it
Ready for it
Oh love, I think I'm ready-Katy Perry
- areklgaksdaghsildgha!!!!
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 14th, 19:50
exhausted
Im too tired for this...
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 13th, 20:06
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I finished both applications...I feel much better Im actually feeling inspired. I was thinking about making a whole CD of cover songs just for me though. For shits and giggles. plus that way I get to mess around with all my equipment it should be fun. Four day weekend coming up/UT audition a lot a LOT of stuff is coming up I'm worried but excited...I feel like playing guitar. I think I'll go do that now...oh and btw...tape worms LMFAO
- Kill Me
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 11th, 22:35
- drained
Its starting to get to me...making up all of this school work is literally killing me I have a constant headache im in constant pain and I can never sleep unless its right after school what the fuck is wrong with me I just want to freeze time and go to sleep for a few days Im exhausted...I could cry. I feel another nervous breakdown coming on. It happened last year and I was no where near as busy as I am now =/
- Think about this
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 10th, 13:13
cheerful
According to Ms.Perdomo lol...the universe is made up of pairs. Take love for example, love isnt just love. It has to be in a pair. You can't have love without hate...but the two cancel each other out so what you're really left with is nothing. Cause if you think about it the person you're in love with you also hate them as well. And then there's the whole dragon fly/spider thing Dragonflies are also creatures of the water, and any creature whose habitat is in, or around water carries symbolism relative the the subconscious, or "dreaming" mind and thoughts.This is because in the animal world, water is symbolic of the subconscious mind ("deeper mind," "dreaming mind") and relates to the thoughts we have in relaxed/meditative/sleeping/subconscious states. Dragonflies carry messages that deal with deeper thought - and they ask that we pay attention to our deeper thoughts and desires. Not only do Spiders and their webs draw attention to our life choices, they also give us an overview of how we can manipulate our thinking in order to construct the life we wish to live.Spiders do this by calling our awareness to the amazing construction of their webs. Fully functional, practical, and ingenious in design - Spider webs serve as homes, food storage, egg incubators - seemingly limitless in their functionality. When we consider this ingenious diversity, we can also consider the web-like construct of our own lives. How are we designing the most effective life? Dragonfly: Prosperity, Good luck, Strength, Peace, Harmony, and Purity.
Spider: Cunning, Progressive, Female, Cyclical, Rebirth, Death, Crafty, Resourceful, Creation, Protection, and Fate.Ms.Perdomo: "That's really interesting it makes me wonder...
Josie: "Wonder What?"
Ms.Perdomo: "Whose the spider and whose the dragonfly?"
Josie: "O_O"Ms.Perdomo really makes me think XD
- Here's a tip
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 10th, 13:04
annoyed
If you happen to stumble upon a piece of information...no matter how horrible or interesting it is. It's not YOUR responsibility to tell the other parties involved. You have to let everyone come clean about things on their OWN. Telling the other person FOR them only makes things worse WTF is going ON...is this like international chiste month or some shit? Wtf yo. People seriously... MIND YOUR OWN FUCKING BUSINESS Stop trying to be the "good friend" or the "hero" because someday someone's going to do the SAME shit to you and you're going to see how it doesn't help you FOR SHIT. If you truly care for and respect someone you don't go sticking your nose in their business. If they want you to know they'll tell you. And if they ask you not to say anything stfu and respect their feelinsg You can't trust anyone anymore...as I said in my last post "Niggas don't got no sense these days"
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 9th, 20:17
- calm
Looks like I won BITCH Niggas dont got no sense these days Anyway I'm scrambling to finish everything for my UM application all I need now is my essay =D. Im excited. I hope I get in or imahaftaslapabitch And btw...some people need to get their priorities in check. When you call someone crying it means you trust them and care for them right? I guess you didnt care enough to be there for me when the dust settled You hurt me...once...and I'm just going to say that I'm going to make sure it never ever happens again. Consider this goodbye
- I love how
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 6th, 15:59
busy
Even my horoscopes are torn Aint that a bitch? >_O
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 5th, 21:42
sick
It's been 5 days already and only 1 day of school and people are already getting pwned by internet drama. Its ridiculous how someone could take something so silly SO seriously Anyhow, things have been odd as of yet but I feel them improving. I've got a massive headache, I've been having a lot of headaches lately actually. Its probably a side effect of my surgery I really didn't think it was going to be this painful. I'm trying to put on a brave face but everyone has their weak points so I guess this is mine. I'm in a lot of pain. I wish it would just stop
- Waiting for your call....
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 4th, 0:43
cold
On the way home tonight from Susy's birthday party they were playing music in the car and all of a sudden "Your Call" came on and all I could think about was you I miss you
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 2nd, 15:24
- amused
My last post for a while. I've got tape on my modem but I dunno how long that will hold up and it got completely pwned Amy's sleeping over today so I'm looking forward to that because I really need a little fun right now And hopefully you'll read this or understand this but "little melon slice" wants you to call her soon XD I'm going to see Katy Perry April 29th and I couldn't be more excited =] Its only been 2 days and 2009 has already kicked twice as much ass. Fuck a nigga named 2008 and rest in peace. So yeah in case anyone needs to get in touch with me for whatever reason a text goes a long way =]
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- soapstarjoe0723
- January 1st, 1:10
- cheerful
Getting shit faced and spiking coke has never been so much fun =D HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! '09!!!! AND FUCK '08 XP!!!!
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- soapstarjoe0723
- December 28th, 2008
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Why do dads have to be such fucking assholes? You know what dad...again I must thank you for the service you've paid me. You've taught me exactly how to be a piece of shit parent, so I think I'll do the opposite. Thanks for sending me a card with cash and no signature for christmas. Thanks for choosing your verbally challenged son over me and turning me into the bastard child. Thanks for cheating on my mother when all she did was love you and care for you even though you sure as fuck didn't deserve it. Thanks for telling the child support judge that you were unemployed so that you didnt have to pay a REAL amount of child support and then complaining about how you have to pay so much. Thanks for never giving three shits about the only person in your family that actually cared about you despite all the horrible shit you did. Even after finding all of this out I still loved you but forget that shit. Maybe the reason I kept hanging out and hoping you'd change is because I needed to fill the void. I needed a real father but guess what? Now I have Michael...he's been a better father to me in 2 years than you could ever hope to be in the 17 years that I've been your daughter...your FIRST child and your only girl. But I guess nothing I ever did was enough for you because I don't have a penis Well I'm sorry to break it to you DIPSHIT but its your fault I'm a girl anyway come MIERDA I'd say that I wish you the worst but I'd be lying just don't ever count on me for anything because as far as I'm concerned you're just a stranger who happens to have my last name but you are nothing to me
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- soapstarjoe0723
- December 25th, 2008
anxious
I woke up this morning expecting to only get what I told my mom to order for my sax...two mouthpieces a fabric ligature...that kind of stuff. They got me a fucking PS2 and guitar hero world tour -__________________-' I guess they wanted to try and make up for everything this christmas lacked as far as tradition goes. Last night at dinner my grandma prayed and she thanked god for all the years she was with my grandpa. I guess I should have been thankful for that too. I miss him...especially now. Even more so because we're graduating this year and he won't physically be here to see it. I know I know "He'll be there in spirit" and all that stuff but none of that stuff makes up for the huge smile he would give us when he was proud...I'd give anything in the world to see that just once more AH enough Tomorrow is going to be a good day. There's an AVD show at the Wallflower Gallery and I'm going I can't wait to see them again lol so yeah I hope everyone had a wonderful christmas and yeah lets all get crunk on new years =D
- Valentin Martinez....
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- soapstarjoe0723
- December 24th, 2008
- cold
Our "Christmas Dinner" is in 2 hours...did anyone care to look outside today? It's so gloomy...its almost as if nature is reflecting our feelings. I went by the cemetery today...its depressing to think that tomorrow is my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary and he's dead It's almost like I have no family anymore. Everyone's doing their own thing and we're all trying to keep it together but its just not working. My aunt isn't coming to dinner so I went out of my way and I bought her a little something because even if she has no tree or lights or anything in her house...she should still have something to open because even if it doesn't feel like it, it IS Christmas I have a headache...today is just not...I don't even know. I think I'll sit and read for a while I hope you're all having a much better day =]. Merry christmas everyone.
- Christmas '08 Blows
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- soapstarjoe0723
- December 24th, 2008
awake
We got our christmas tree last night...and we still haven't decorated it. Christmas just doesn't feel like christmas this year...we're not having a family dinner at my aunts house were just eating here. I'm going out to buy presents TODAY cause someone left me hanging last night *coughcough* On the bright side Vane's here and shes "FABULOUSLY FRESH" lol thats what it says on the front of the present I got her lol. Let's see how this works out Oh btw Ruth you left your drawing and your gift here xD
